I’m intersex. Non standard genitals. Times and times again I’m being made to choose to be a man or a woman. My pleas to get minimal hormones just to be healthy are ignored. I’m in medical debt due to dealing with debilitating complications from doctors forcing my body to be either female or male. Letting my body be it’s normal self minus what was causing actual issues was never an option. I’m deeply convinced if nonbinary people were acknowledged this wouldn’t be the case. I’m given zero control. Asking to be put on low dose is ignored. My only option is refusing all hormones and hoping my body will manage. I don’t have natural dysphoria, I get dysphoria from the surgical and hormonal changes forced upon me. I’m tired. Fuck nbphobia.
Keep advocating for yourself. Don’t let anyone convince you that you have to take whatever hormones or have whatever surgery. My transition worked out way better when I found a doctor willing to listen to my troubles and recommended treatment that aligned with my goals. I think surgery saved my life. I had 3 suicide attempts before it and 0 since. The difference in the quality of life is like night and day.
I’m glad it worked for you eventually. It’s really awful we have to degrade ourselves and go around begging for help till we maybe find someone sympathetic. My Transfem enby friend has to pretend to be a trans woman and her transfem enby friend does DIY to avoid having to go through this. It’s all so crap…