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The original was posted on /r/extremelyinfuriating by /u/disapointingsandwich on 2023-08-03 17:22:29+00:00.

For context Im diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, and depression although it’s no where near as bad as others. I also just graduated college and have been searching for a job which has put me under a lot of stress, I just got a job offer pending a drug screening that I was really anxious about. I am supposed to start the job in a couple of days pending the test.

As for what happened was I’ve been going to therapy weekly for a while now and these past couple of days I was just feeling really down. I decided to confess to my therapist that the only thing I can think of as for where I want to be in 5 years is dead. This lead to him calling my mom to take me to the ER for an evaluation which itself took 8 HOURS of me just sitting in the ER. (Which is another problem in itself). Anyway after the evaluation they pretty much gave me only 2 options.

I could either spend 2 days in inpatient or do a 6 week PHP program which would consist of me at a facility Monday through Friday from 7am to 4 pm.

Obviously 2 days in the hospital won’t cure me so that felt like a waste of money. But how the fuck am i supposed to start/keep my job if I can’t work for 6 weeks. Like your going to make me lose my job that I spent 2 months working to find and how am I supposed to pay the bills that I owe.

I know for a fact that if they make me do that program im going to be more suicidal after than I was before.

I know I’m lucky to have a family that is willing to help me while I work through this but what about people that don’t.

And if anyone is worried I am doing much better today than I was before.