I just want to get involved in something and lose track of my worries and negative thoughts, until it’s time to fall asleep. Is that passion or guilt free escapism. Is it meaningful or worth it is it real or are you just lost in delusion. Are you just scared and want to feel better, OR maybe for some reason you seek understanding and knowledge somehow your fears are pushing you to cherish your suppressed CURIOSITY. Does that make you a human? Or can you not define what a human is the way you are? Or you accept you are no human just whatever man!