June 4, 2023 is when I felt I had to get involved. And June 8, 2023 is when I crated my own testing-focused experimental Lemmy install that compiled Main from GitHub source and ready to test the changes I thought were surely going to come to the SQL because of GitHub issue 2910. I wanted to test the code that that developers who had been working and running lemmy.ml for over 4 full years - would surely address. It was June 4 with Issue 2910, the June 30 Reddit API cutoff deadline countdown was well under way. Lemmy.ml put in major hardware upgrades on June 13, 2023 - and I was puzzled why such an easy 2 or 3 hour fix for Issue 2910 wasn’t put in… but I still had hope that everyone would see the pending countdown to June 30 API deadline and a fix could go in within 10 days - by June 23… for some slack time before June 30…

Watching Beehaw, up and running for 17 months on Lemmy - crashing constantly… I thought, surely the developers were seeing Issue 2910 happening over there… but June 28 came, June 29 came, June 30… nothing. With 4 years of experience on the Rust code base and such, they were the ones to fix Issue 2910… but from June 4 to June 30, it just didn’t happen.

  • RoundSparrow @ BT@bulletintree.comOPM
    1·
    11 months ago

    Hello. I can help you try to understand, perhaps I can rephrase it. I have brain damage and my mental health is not that great, communication is a constant struggle for me.

    1. Beehaw has been around since January 2022 running Lemmy - well over a year before the Reddit surge
    2. Lemmy has major problems with scalability and causing sever crashes, notably I talked about GitHub issue 2910 opened on June 4, 2023
    3. Beehaw crashed daily - and nothing was done about the underlying problem in the code while critical weeks went by
    4. I have a lot of regret for watching this happen all June
    5. There was a small project on June 7 that was about making an API proxy that I feel I was distracted from and I regret being distracted.
    6. I am trying to make sense of why I underestimated all this and find the problems in my brain so I don’t repeat it.

    This is sharing of open thoughts… I don’t have any faith in these words being something others are seeking out. It’s exactly the kind of navel-gazing a lot of people find extremely repulsive. Where I’m living, people find the words of Donald Trump irresistible and repeatable, up to and including every other member of my family. I have no doubts that my perspective on what images and patterns of words people desire is way out from what many are seeking. I know well I’m in an echo chamber…

    • Elise@beehaw.org
      2·
      11 months ago

      Thanks for your detailed answer, it makes it a lot easier to understand.

      I’m sorry about your mental health issues. Isn’t it strange that we are living in such developed countries and yet we struggle to live. People can read and write and yet follow a so called strongman.

      Also sorry about your brain damage. Based on your texts here I can’t say I’ve noticed any of your communication issues. You seem reflective, kind, intelligent and I assume caring because you take care of the instance.

      About the Trumpets, I must say here in the Netherlands we have something like that too, especially in the conservative area I live in. People here hang the flag upside down. I’m not a nationalist by any stretch but I find that to be rather distasteful. Arguments against climate change that are cherry picked and sensationalist and lacking in nuance. A dislike for foreigners, who do a lot of the actual work around here, and even a dislike for refugees. I’m told regularly that they are the real cause of problems such as the housing crisis.

      Well personally I like to argue for solidarity, especially solidarity through reason. I mean if someone chooses to be hateful or selfish that is their choice, but let’s at least have the same facts in front of us. And also I like to be active in the areas I care about. For example I’m trying to connect refugees to the wider community by allowing them to exhibit their art.

      You know plenty of trumpets & co just scapegoat and complain because it is easy. But it’s a lot harder to build something I think, and more impactful than it might seem at times.

      I hope you also feel you’re working on something positive that you believe in by making Beehaw possible. It’s a well moderated safe space for people like me, and I enjoy being here and letting my guard down. So thanks for that!