Silken tofu with a sauce on top. Paired with rice made in a rice cooker (a worthwhile investment, get one if you don’t have one.) Or just eat it on its own, I’ve done that lol.

same

Apparently it’s not entirely uncommon to never feel an endorphin rush from exercise? Glad to know that I’m not the only one lol.

(i accidentally posted this in the news mega earlier. sorry!)

daily health complaint: doctors can be so useless lmao. I actually snapped at my doctor today because she tried to imply that my insert laundry list of concerning symptoms here were a result of anxiety because I was wearing a p100. I feel a little bad about it but not that bad.

anyways, shit is getting better but still not great. I hope I get some good sleep.

I haven’t seen that performance before, thanks for sharing it with me it’s so good!

I realize that I’ve posted 3 albums from 2022 in a row. I swear I listen to music from other years too lol

daily health update (not a complaint this time!): i felt a lot better today! the nausea is mostly gone and the fatigue wasn’t so bad that i wasn’t able to sit up or anything. i have another doctor’s appointment tomorrow so hopefully i get closer to an answer of what is wrong? anyways thanks general mega for putting up with my healthposting, somehow i do find it comforting to just chat about it here haha

Fuck, do I have diabetes? I’m experiencing a bunch of the symptoms all of a sudden. I had a blood test like within the last month though and my doctor said things were fine besides a slight vitamin D deficiency.

I am trying to eat some food right now and just this act of exertion feels almost too exhausting to go through with. what is happening with me

feeling dizzy and sick from hunger, again. wtf i ate dinner

I essentially folded the moment my assertion in my “cis-ness” was challenged (got asked what pronouns I preferred for the first time, had a thought that “maybe they/them would be fun” come into my head, and went from there.) Over the years since having that first realization, my perception of my own gender has shifted and changed as I’ve tried different labels and pronouns, accepted some, and rejected others. Right now I’m in a pretty comfortable position with my gender (firmly trans, wanting androgenic HRT, not identifying with being transmasc/a trans man) but who knows, things are subject to change in the future as I gain new experiences and discover more about myself.

I think what helped me was gaining the realization that wanting to be whatever gender you want to be is all the proof you need. I used to be stuck in the idea that there is some “essence” of transness that I was missing, therefore I wasn’t trans. But there isn’t. You don’t need to experience dysphoria to be trans (though it’s pretty common for trans people to realize that they were, in fact, experiencing dysphoria and just didn’t know that’s what it was.) Cis people don’t find themselves wanting to be other genders. I know, it’s weird.

Good luck on your gender journey

i don’t have an issue with my brother doing STEM and I recognize that defense contractor ties to colleges are hard to avoid, I guess I should specify that.

mmm, didn’t mean to imply there’s anything wrong with STEM, just that STEM schools in the US settler empire are heavily linked with defense contractors. it’s unavoidable that people will attend schools that have those ties, sadly. liberal arts schools aren’t exempt either, I was just talking about STEM schools because of the context of our conversation.

Probably. I guess it’s technically been 6 hours since I ate anything.

My mom has some pretty based takes (and some bad ones, it’s a mixed bag.) Was talking to my mom about how basically all STEM schools in the US are all linked to the defense industry and she was like “oh, I see” and agreed with me that the US defense industry is evil. This isn’t going to stop my brother from going to a STEM school though lol.

Feeling weirdly hungry and dizzy for whatever reason

LETS GOOOOOOOOO

I aspire to the pure posting power of some of the great Hexbear posters… the thousands of comments to my name…

Are orcas the true vanguard of the revolution? Discuss.