As in your never understood by anyone, you don’t fit in anywhere, nobody cares about you, you have no one in your life, no friends, no connections, nothing, all the common advice doesn’t work for you (i.e. distract yourself, take a walk, go to therapy, etc.), you have terrible luck, you can barely find a job, your broken inside, your mind is constantly rotting, you can’t do anything properly, your stuck in a shitty society and or an abusive household, etc. how do you survive? How do you properly bottle everything up without bursting or going insane in a situation like that?
mostly by giving myself an imprecise, distant deadline to check out if things don’t get better by then. Right now, that deadline is the death of my mother. After she’s gone I’ll have nobody to mourn me, no ability to keep the lights on, and no one else I’d care to stick around for.
I’d guess I have between 5 and 10 years. Either things get better and I stick around, or they don’t, and it won’t be my problem anymore.
That’s about it. Having a defined “I know this will be over, in time, whether it continues to suck or not” has made it easier to not outright end it now.