I don’t really do anything worthwhile. Or at least that is what it sounds like when it is talked about. “You didn’t have to do that” “you don’t feel like that do you” I must really not be good at anything, and I really did think I was helping. But I guess I should keep to what I am good at, being in the way.
I have what I need, a place so no one will need to deal with clean up, and I have the know how. Courage is the thing I need and let me tell you my courage grows everyday.
I will probably delete this when I wakeup in the morning because I am a coward, but soon I will have the strength and need the relief enough.
If you think you’re worthless and dumb then why do you think you’re right about that? Dumb people think they’re the smartest.
Clearly the issue is thar your brain chemistry is fucked up and tricking you into thinking that’s true.
It doesn’t make you a coward it makes you a genius. You’re intelligent enough to know that there’s literally no reason to end it now
Don’t really think I am dumb and that is part of the problem, in fact I am quite well read, but it is of no use, I will never be an author, professor, or anything that will need that information, and the people I do know never know what I am talking about. Part of what makes me sure I will remain useless to those around me. I really do just need to get up the courage to get out of the way.
Nah. It’d be a waste of a good brain. Like I said just a bit chemically unbalanced
I appreciate it, I really do, but trust me it is already being wasted.
Meh, every person matters. I believe in the positive butterfly effect, any positive thing you can do no matter how small, insignificant, or ‘worthless’ or ‘in the way’ positively affects the world. Pushes away the negative entropy. Shrug I know there’s a low chance that your current chemical balance will allow you to accept this, but maybe someday it’ll help.
Hope you get something to help you.
Also, just an FYI, the chemical imbalance thing is really not current science.
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/insight-therapy/202207/depression-is-not-caused-chemical-imbalance-in-the-brain
Interesting, I’m quite out of date on this. Nice link