I didn’t ask you for sympathy, nor do I deserve sympathy, but just because I think something won’t work doesn’t mean no one should try because what I think is almost always wrong.
And I’m sure I am manipulative and degrading to others. One of the billion ways I’m a colossal fuckup.
And a fuckup who is responsible for someone’s life and is going to destroy that life by being a fuckup.
And if you don’t want me to “bring this energy” to you, no one is forcing you to keep replying. I never asked you to respond to me in the first place.
Just pretend I’m already dead like I will be when I inevitably fuck up and she goes into a camp and it will be my fault and I won’t be able to live with it. I’m barely able to live with myself now. Hence the suicide attempts.
Not sure why people still bother talking to me once they realize I’m a worthless sack of shit.
Not sure why people still bother talking to me once they realize I’m a worthless sack of shit
And stop this mope as a defense response to not being “perfect”. Just move on then. Nobody else is perfect and we don’t all throw in on life because of it. It’s like you aren’t even trying to learn from your mistakes and get better.
Even if others are sacks of shit they don’t off themselves either and we have to keep dealing with them whether they are attempting to get better or not cause they don’t go anywhere.
If you think you are a good person and someone disagrees you don’t just burn the city down to prove you were never good. It’s fucking pathetic and apathetic, you try to figure out how to be better.
I give fucks, unfortunately, about everyone, yourself included. That’s my stupidity.
You made a hail Mary of a decision and now you think it’s failing but you have already decided an outcome that isn’t anywhere close to reality. None of the things you worry about have yet to come to pass. Come up for air sometime but I won’t respond like this cause you need to be the one to come up.
And also I have a personal vendetta against suicide. It is apparently not very effective and really rather painful.
You give so much of a fuck that you’ve insulted me in almost every comment.
None of the things you worry about have yet to come to pass.
Yet.
It is apparently not very effective and really rather painful.
Oh look, another thing you know nothing about in regards to me. I am literally in constant pain. On the 1-10 pain scale, I am rarely below a 3. I reach 10 at least once a month.
Either stop pretending to give a shit about me or stop pretending you know who I am.
Then get off the fucking Internet and focus on your family you dingus. Limit your scale to what you have control of and stop moving around here trying to solve everything or prove anything to any of us.
I responded because you called me a liar for stating facts. You constantly decide for others and double down on things stupider than this conversation as well. Fucking decide for your own life. If your goal is 100% making your daughter have the best life then make choices for that, dont continue with others who that’s not their goal.
You haven’t failed if you haven’t given up yet. Just change your tactic or your mind every once in a while. And yeah I will stop giving you the attention you crave now. Go deal with yourself. And I don’t mean that in the snarky way you are. Suicide fucking hurts, it’s physically a painful mess and it doesn’t fix anything it just means you stop the board without ever even trying to get more points and everyone else has to play on without you.
Do better than daydreaming about already failing.
I know I haven’t failed yet. I said I’m going to fail.
And yes, I know everything I say is stupid, I already established that. I realize I’m a moron but you don’t have to repeat what I said back to me.
Anyway, like I said, you won’t have to worry about any of it soon enough when I inevitably ruin her life because I won’t be around to see the fallout. I won’t be manipulating you any more. I’m not even sure how I’m doing it now, but I believe you because everything anyone says about me that is bad is almost certainly true to some extent.
I didn’t ask you for sympathy, nor do I deserve sympathy, but just because I think something won’t work doesn’t mean no one should try because what I think is almost always wrong.
And I’m sure I am manipulative and degrading to others. One of the billion ways I’m a colossal fuckup.
And a fuckup who is responsible for someone’s life and is going to destroy that life by being a fuckup.
And if you don’t want me to “bring this energy” to you, no one is forcing you to keep replying. I never asked you to respond to me in the first place.
Just pretend I’m already dead like I will be when I inevitably fuck up and she goes into a camp and it will be my fault and I won’t be able to live with it. I’m barely able to live with myself now. Hence the suicide attempts.
Not sure why people still bother talking to me once they realize I’m a worthless sack of shit.
For your edit.
And stop this mope as a defense response to not being “perfect”. Just move on then. Nobody else is perfect and we don’t all throw in on life because of it. It’s like you aren’t even trying to learn from your mistakes and get better.
Even if others are sacks of shit they don’t off themselves either and we have to keep dealing with them whether they are attempting to get better or not cause they don’t go anywhere.
If you think you are a good person and someone disagrees you don’t just burn the city down to prove you were never good. It’s fucking pathetic and apathetic, you try to figure out how to be better.
It’s not a defense, it’s a fact.
And others who are sacks of shit aren’t going to end up putting their daughter in a conversion camp.
One of the many things about me you are wrong about because you don’t know me.
Why do you even give a fuck?
I give fucks, unfortunately, about everyone, yourself included. That’s my stupidity.
You made a hail Mary of a decision and now you think it’s failing but you have already decided an outcome that isn’t anywhere close to reality. None of the things you worry about have yet to come to pass. Come up for air sometime but I won’t respond like this cause you need to be the one to come up.
And also I have a personal vendetta against suicide. It is apparently not very effective and really rather painful.
You give so much of a fuck that you’ve insulted me in almost every comment.
Yet.
Oh look, another thing you know nothing about in regards to me. I am literally in constant pain. On the 1-10 pain scale, I am rarely below a 3. I reach 10 at least once a month.
Either stop pretending to give a shit about me or stop pretending you know who I am.
Then get off the fucking Internet and focus on your family you dingus. Limit your scale to what you have control of and stop moving around here trying to solve everything or prove anything to any of us.
I responded because you called me a liar for stating facts. You constantly decide for others and double down on things stupider than this conversation as well. Fucking decide for your own life. If your goal is 100% making your daughter have the best life then make choices for that, dont continue with others who that’s not their goal.
You haven’t failed if you haven’t given up yet. Just change your tactic or your mind every once in a while. And yeah I will stop giving you the attention you crave now. Go deal with yourself. And I don’t mean that in the snarky way you are. Suicide fucking hurts, it’s physically a painful mess and it doesn’t fix anything it just means you stop the board without ever even trying to get more points and everyone else has to play on without you.
Do better than daydreaming about already failing.
I know I haven’t failed yet. I said I’m going to fail.
And yes, I know everything I say is stupid, I already established that. I realize I’m a moron but you don’t have to repeat what I said back to me.
Anyway, like I said, you won’t have to worry about any of it soon enough when I inevitably ruin her life because I won’t be around to see the fallout. I won’t be manipulating you any more. I’m not even sure how I’m doing it now, but I believe you because everything anyone says about me that is bad is almost certainly true to some extent.