When I first heard this song I was an early 20s college dropout and had been working at a state psych hospital as a nursing assistant for a month. I was orienting on dayshift before switching to nights and my coworkers were miserable people who hated me. They sent me to groups for the day with the patients (a staff member had to go from each unit; eventually it became ~my assignment~ when I got held over onto dayshift because I realized it would get me away from them). They were having a music group in the room next to my post in the the hall and they played this, and I remember thinking that I knew that if I just got through all this someday I’d be somebody that people would respect but it really would be nice to just wake up there.

It really sucked at the time and there are a LOT of things I wish I’d done differently but these last few months at this new hospital I’ve had a couple people already (especially on other units) say that when a patient is throwing down and I show up they feel better because they’ve been impressed with how well I’ve handled them before. Sometimes it’s like herding cats but I’ve noticed I’ve got a better sense of even just where everyone needs to be in the room to handle something safely. The past decade almost now actually does kinda feel like a blur and it’s really weird to be waking up wiser and older.

(Also it really set off a love for EDM that had lowkey started with artists like cascada when I was even younger. Avicii is still one of my favorites and while I wish I could’ve had more I’m at least finding something similar with Apashe).