SO, I had the day off today and decided to get a little practice in. I started by heating a small corner off an edible, just enough to loosen me up a bit, and rubbing some cbd cream on my hole. I lay on the couch (with a towel obv) and began running my vibrator back and forth between my taint and my tip. While listening to various sissy hypno on my headphones. I own three toys: a vibrating prostate massager, a 4" toy, and an 8" suction cup dildo. While I was using the vibrator, I started lightly sucking on my dildo.

After about 20 minutes of this, I filled up a syringe with a little bit of lube and injected it into my hole. What didn’t go in, I rubbed all around the outside and on my 5" toy. Inserting the toy was a little tricky at first, but persistence and lube got it in eventually. I pushed in a few inches until I hit that same “wall” as before. I tried to adjust my angle and arch my back a bit then suddenly felt a “pop” of sorts as it slid effortlessly in.

I can’t say the sensation was particularly great, it felt vaguely and uncomfortable and like I was shitting myself. Psychologically though it was quite nice. I was completely zoned in, and at some point I switched from sucking my dildo to playing with myself.

After a few minutes I felt myself getting close, and I shoved it in to the hilt and came all over myself. Naturally I licked it all up like a good sissy, but was dismayed to find that when I pulled my toy out, it wasuch “dirtier” than I’d hoped. Clearly I still have a few things to learn about cleaning.

Thank you all for being such a supportive community, I can’t wait to become a regular around here! If y’all have any advice on where to go from here (one day I want to be able to take it rough with my big dildo) I would love to hear it. Any tips about cleaning and preparation would also be quite welcome.