nabana [they/them]

No doubt in my mind that I will. I was absolutely getting the itch for some new music to get me through automating tasks people told me can’t be automated and not telling anyone so I can spend more of my work day studying. o7

Edit: Thanks again for all the fucking great mixes. If there’s ever any way I can kick some dollars your way like donations or a platform where you take payments lmk and I’ll see what I can do. I owe you at least one lunch with how much of my sanity you’ve saved helping me drown out the world.

The same one who spent the first hour or two of each LAN trying to convince each of their friends to stop playing random shit / playing by themselves while everyone is copying the game we were going to play in order to try and prevent finally getting to the last person and the first half of the people being “over it and wanting to play something else” only for the cycle to re-start.

Also the same one threatening all of the friends leeching random shit from each other that if they don’t wait until at least most people have copied the game that they’ll receive physical harm.

Also the same one that loves the bittorrent protocol almost as much for non internet reasons as they do for internet reasons. Hosting all the games we were going to play on a local tracker/seedbox at a LAN absolutely fucking changed the game entirely. That and getting a layer 3 switch and tagging/prioritizing torrent traffic over everything else.

Hi, is this where I’m supposed to go for the Antinatalist struggle session?

I agree with this, but as someone with ADHD who needs it to perform my fucking job, I am also all of these things except also untreated for ADHD because someone else also isn’t doing their job to even basic competency. Like I know there’s a million zillion reasons it sucks but those are never the reasons we’re given. The reasons we’re given day in day out are “well, we fucked up and here’s an excuse that doesn’t even make sense.”

If we push back on those reasons AT ALL we’re instantly treated like medication seeking strung out addicts who are angry because they can’t get their street drugs that they probably give away for free to babies to get them hooked and dependent on drugs while putting razor blades in their candy or whatever the the fucking news fed WASP stereotype is.

It’s not about being annoyed that sometimes mistakes happen and people are generally treated like shit as laborers, including pharmacists. I’ve never met an ADHD person who doesn’t understand that the systems are shit, the regulations are shit, the wages and staffing is shit, etc. What we don’t understand and what’s so frustrating is why the fuck they simultaneously think the words they’re saying are even consistent (if not valid) excuses, and why the fuck we’re treated like shit (which again, even if we were addicts is a piss poor way to treat people, but that’s a separate argument). It’s not a single event. It’s every single pharmacy, every single pharmacist, every single prescription, with VERY RARE exceptions.

Being someone that’s also got friends and family taking BPD meds, anti-depressants, etc, even they think it’s absurd how hard it is to fill an ADHD prescription compared to literally everything they take. The entire medical attitude towards ADHD is fucking toxic.

Edit: Just to add because I think it’s important, I know literally none of this is their fault and is entirely the result of shit policies, shit circumstances, and shitloads of propaganda. I know they’re mostly now just retail employees, none of the above is ever any reason to treat them like shit either. I was just defending OPs rant that I am overwhelmingly sure they came here to have instead of being annoyed at the pharmacist, because if they had it at the pharmacy they’d have included “and now my life is basically a million times harder because they decided the minute I was agitated that I was never allowed to take a controlled substance again.”