First time hearing about Fitgirl Repacks so I am gonna book mark that too lol.

My last Bethesda modding experience was Skyrim and I was dropping mod files directly into the WINE prefix and it(almost) just worked as I recall.

I found this: https://gist.github.com/richardgaywood/e64eeb162062adb501fd3d35add9a0e8 but donno if I wanna get that involved. I sort of wish they had an AppImage like r2ModManager lol. That thing works perfectly fine for games installed via proton. Like I’m impressed with how simple it is.

I’m looking at Axiom Verge 2. I just did a cheatyface playthrough of the first one(first playthrough was years ago and no cheatyface).

I also just got introduced to Balatro from a friend and now I really want it lol. I’m a fan of Roguelites but don’t play them a great deal(do have like 200 hours in on Isaac) but I used to play poker and also enjoy card games, not so much deck builders. I played Slay the Spire a bit and own it on 2 systems but I’m just not great at those types of games. I figured maybe Balatro is the best of both worlds. What I’d really like to see is a a trick taking mechanic combined with meta-progression but idk how that would look.

Jedi Fallen Order is $4 but just saw yesterday that it’s an EA title so that was an easy decision.

Not sure what else to get. I wanna play through New Vegas and also the Mass Effect trilogy a second time but both games are dicey on if they run well on Linux. I don’t even know where to begin with modding Bethesda games on Linux in 2024 lol.

Just a head’s up but if you can pirate Disco, the OG devs basically say to do that. It got bought by someone that immediately shafted the devs. I don’t really know the full drama but the devs don’t make any money on sales.

E: also see @CredibleBattery@hexbear.net’s comment below in this post.

dmed

Yeah lol I got 70k in student loan debt that I never even plan on paying off.

I never got the referal invite to Outlier. I think that is the remote AI gig you had posted about. But I did see them posting jobs so I applied to a few yesterday, so there is that at least.

Getting super fucking depressed. I haven’t been to therapy in 3 weeks and still got 3 more before my therapist is back from vacation.

It’s been almost a year since I got canned from my job. I read a statistic this morning that it takes an average of 3 to 5 months to find a new job. I guess I’m an over-achiever. I really don’t know what to fucking do about it either. There are virtually no jobs in my area that are even worth applying for. When I do get an interview I just fuck it up. I don’t know how to interview, even though I have watched and read everything online about how to interview.

This all came on because I think I technically have given up on trying to get a “real job” where I work for a boss. I am legitimately trying to get a freelance web dev thing going. I have told a few people about it and 2, not one but 2 of them that know my plight, asking me very fucking smugly if I am gonna also still try and get a “real job” while I pretend to make websites. Like, maybe fuck you? Sorry I didn’t fucking think about looking for a job. Jesus Christ, maybe that will help.

I’ve filled out something around 600 to 900 applications but maybe that I should just apply to places I guess.

I’m 41 years old. I checked my 401k yesterday and it’s at 35k. That’s it. That’s what I get to look forward to for retirement unless we successfully manage to wipe humanity off the planet first, which at this point I’d prefer. But at 41, you really can’t even save for any sort of retirement. I’m stuck trying to find a fucking job for the rest of my miserable fucking life. Find a job, like it, get burned out and hate it, get fired, look for year, rinse, repeat.

Kind of fucking done. But yeah, people don’t wanna hire me and do want to fire me but I guess trying to be self employed is somehow an affront to those I told about. Same motherfuckers who don’t care about my financial well-being keep asking me if I still make sourdough. You know, because when you are suffering from crippling depression, you wanna bake some fucking bread. I practically have to put reminders in my calendar to bathe but sure lemme make some fucking bread while I have an existential crisis about dying poor and homeless. Hope you enjoy the motherfucking bread!

Finished reading Conspiracy Against the Human Race the other day. It’s ok. Not great. Not really a philosophical book, but more of an attempt at a fiction writer trying to write bleakly about an already bleak subject really. I was mostly digging it until the last chapter just turned into an analysis of Lovecraft’s and Poe’s writing styles since it was billed as a philosophical book and not a writer analysis but whatever.

Ligotti mostly just writes like “here is why sad, I won’t explain it further but here’s the writer’s thoughts on this that I’ve been jerking off the entire book. Also here is a great modern philosopher who I don’t even know their real name.” He also does that repetition thing like you see in theory but it just never really lands.

Probably a 5/10 book for me really.

Also I started playing Axiom Verge again randomly the other day. I’m 2 bosses in and rage quit over the fast screechy zombie boys. Probably try to get back to it today.

I wish I had gotten an ereader like a decade ago. My Kindle and pirate hat has gotten me back into reading in a major way. My only gripe is I wish I had know about how easy pirating digital books was gonna be and would have opted for a different brand since fuck Amazon and fuck sunk cost fallacy.

Lol just be like “who here likes fly fishing?”

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I skimmed your comment earlier and somehow missed Fiasco. It sounds amazing lol. Goblin Quest sounds fun too since I’m a DND player.

I’m also curious about what systems you recommend that are just players and no GM actually.

Ivalice is one of their best worlds imo. I beat FFT years ago but only got around to FF12 like 2 years ago but after finding out they take olace in the same universe just made appreciate the lore so much more. I need to go back and play Tactics again.

I can remember in school in my marketing or management class I had to take, we covered how companies like Boeing calculate statistically the potential lives loss compared to cost of safety features and cutting corners. Like there is an actually job that figures if it would be cheaper for safety features x or if it would be more cost efficient if they have like 0.75 planes explode a year.

It’s just weird now seeing it actually being revealed in real time to the general public.

But also death to Boeing and death to profiteering scumbags.

Still working on Minish Cap. I’m stuck between the second and third dungeon doing all the in between stuff. I just got my Pegasus Boots. I haven’t had a chance these last few days to play it because I guess I decided last week to finish 3 books instead of play my handheld emulator. 🙃

This is fucking hilarious.

I’ve been getting these Chef Woo brand vegan cups lately that are high in protein and their “beef” is a mushroom base and it’s pretty damn good. Good option for when I want to put zero effort I to cooking since I have a hot water dispenser.

I tried the second one in your comment and donno if I didn’t make it right or what but maybe I need to give it another try. It was good at first but started to get a bit too sweet as I ate it. I also generally like spicy ramen so maybe it’s just not ehat I was after.

They know their audience lol

I can probably pay some but I’m unemployed and my partner makes a teacher’s salary and we have 2 kids so it won’t be a whole lot. We are in a conservative stronghold of a town and I want to get something going since our DSA chapter fell apart but not sure if I wanna do something regarding a political party or actually establish a charity focused on neurodivergent employment since the only thing we got now is a place that abuses autistic kids with ABA therapy. I guess both is feasible but it depends on what my attempt at freelance web dev looks like in the next couple of months. If I can get it up and running I think I’ll have some time to devote to activism of some sort.

Sorry for the ramble lol.